Finally something bad happened to me during work. =(

Last Friday had an awful incident. Not wanting elaborate anymore but its intentionally that I made it happened and now I think somehow my colleagues will guard against me. What I can say is that. Its not my fault. Really. Cause from the start I knew nothing at all. And I did everything without complaining. And only one thought came my mind; I'm still a newbie, thus, I must do whatever was given to me so I could learn. Thus, I just finished everything. Now I just made a small blunt. Ok maybe I shouldn't have asked my boss but because I needed to complete that task so that I can move on to others and make sure I can go off on dot that day and no one was there for me to ask thus, I can only seek help from my boss. Then the incident happened. Maybe it was my carelessness but this incident I'm sure they will think I'm apple polishing my boss which I don't see a need to. I've already done what I could. I sent email to my colleagues apologzing to them but I'm nt sure how they feel cause they did not reply me. And I've been feeling bad over the weekend and insecured to come to work today. if they are still unhappy they should say out. Why must pretend nothing happened at all and pushed me aside. Sometimes I knew that those work is not part of my job and yet I was being assigned to do so I just did thinking that I can piack up something new so they just took advanatge of this situation. If its not for my future, I can just jolly well pack and go. And because I know no matter where I go, newbie will always be the one who kena bullied so I tolerate. I believed all of u were once a newbie too so is this the way of getting back to a newbie? I'm really trying hard to adapt to the age gap apart and the dialect used by colleagues and not really happy working here but for future sake I've just have to bear everything. Sometimes its just good to be a loner, shutting up mouth just work and work and work. No wonder I was told that once working one have to learn to be tactful in speaking. But even when I don't speak, misunderstanding arise too so what can I do? Hate working life. I think the only best part about working is getting paid on 25th of every month. Hah