Sorry if you feel offended in some part but I have to let things out.
Keeping quiet does not mean I don’t care. Just hope everything still got 挽回的余地
Yes, things are being brought upfront. Like what you say you are not blaming anyone. We here too don’t blame you. But somehow, why are you still escaping?
If you really put us in heart, I guess you should approach us about this matter.
Now I really feel like an idiot. Feeling that are along was only my wishful thinking. Thinking that many years down the road we still can be as great and close like now.
I’m not angry or whatsoever, its just disappointment, sadness. An impact that made me went speechless. This thought kept flashing across my mind. Did I do anything wrong? What really happen? When this started? None of us have the answer.
True to certain extent we might be insensitive in the past. We realized, so we are now changing. When we are changing, you’re leaving. You know how it felt when we know we have drifted and trying to pull everything back but there is a force pushing it away.
In the past we have good and fun memories, well all these have past and we cannot really cling on these memories hoping we will be that happy again but things will move on. A 2nd chance should be given to make things move again but will this 2nd chance happen?
To you, you felt left out, but do you think this thought did not come across to me or rather to the rest of us before. So the decision lies in us. I cherish this relation that’s why I open up to you people if not I will not have the chance to hold great memories with you all. Open up doe not mean must be 100% transparent. For me, its hard for me to tell everything but mostly because, I do not have much things to talk. But when things really happen, I will only speak when I feel like it. No one will force you to relate everything to us. Cause we understand everything takes time. Even if u did not breathe a single word we would not blame you. Privacy, we still understand. The most important thing is as long as we know you are fine and getting back where u fell. We are contented.
We did not left you out cause in your mind you already think that we 3 are very close but you are not us, you do not know what’s in our mind. And we are also hoping that you will turn up in our next dinner meet up. But guess this hope will not happen anymore.
Maybe our concern really strangles you out w/o our knowing. I apologize for that.
I am really too naïve, thinking in a small corner of this world no matter how things changed, we will not changed. If I do not care, I will not write up this blog entry. AND this is not to blame anyone. Just like love relationship, there is no right and wrong. All I can say maybe our fate has come to an end. What should be done has already been done. At least there wouldn’t be any regrets. Life will still move on and must move on. Thanks for everything. Great memories will always be kept in my heart. Sincerely from my heart, wishing you be happy and lead the life which you really hope =D
Don’t really feel like blogging anymore...Plainly LAZY!
Its time for me to learn not to harp on something/someone that does not belong to me.
Its time for me to learn letting things go…Yes. Part and parcel of life; many told me. Few got disappointed and gave up. Now left me still trying to pull back. Maybe I am stubborn. I just don’t believe that one’s attitude towards people; especially close ones can change so sudden. Or maybe all the while I am the one who one-sidedly think that we were close.
Isn’t this pathetic? Hah. I’m mentally tired too but why am I still persistent? Cause I do care but I doubt you do. Maybe to you I can be taken for granted or maybe in everyone’s mind I can be taken for granted cause I do not feel my importance in anyone at all but I already used to it but having used to it got it’s limit too. If one day I really wash my hand out of everything that’s it end of everything. I’m not threatening or whatsoever, just that I’ve 看开 everything. If it’s yours, it will be yours eventually, otherwise no matter how much effort I put in it will just be wasted.
Probably the best way to survive is not to bother about anything. Hah.
Recently I’ve been quite emo on my FB status but don’t worry. Nothing big happended just that I need some space to let my emo-ness out which does not happen so frequent ok so let me be! Hahahaha I’m sure by April everything will be fine.
Life is like roller coaster but if its too exciting at times it will become a burden. Tired easily…Think I’m really getting old HOW?! Hah =D Always believe that good people will get kind repayment so I’m hoping (I assume that I’m a kind soul keke). Have a strong push to give up studying le. Cause its too tiring. Really. Mentally TIRING!
Don’t know what’s wrong with me recently. I was 100% tired which in the past I will definitely fell asleep when in bed but now, I have to toss and flip until 1am then can sleep. I have insomnia?! Can’t be bah haha. Maybe all these emotions made me crave for ice cream heavily these few weeks. Which made my weight go heavily too! HAHAHAHA
AND I have no mood to work. WHY WHY WHY March is a real slow month for me. Can I just fast forward it? =S
