Taking a short break after having coding from 11.20am to 6.00pm. Many will not believe lar cause I seldom so hardworking haha but hey its true ok! Yesterday left school at 8.30pm stressfully though I had solved part of the codes but still left some!!! Who can help me!!! HELP SOS haha. I forcing myself to finish the codes by today but I dun tink so. Worst of all I haven study for my Marketing UT that is held tomorrow. Haiz has been scoring bad for all the second UTs...=[ feel bad but aiya also nothing can be done only hope my the upcoming ones will be better ba (but of course have to work hard)
Seeing almost all my friends are done with their codes the more I feel stress. Why can they finish on time but not me? I'm really scared Monday when handing up the projects all negative stuffs just came to my mind. ARRRGGGGG. =S
Also I haven been quite bad tempered nowadays. I know I have always been bad temper but now feeling helpless, confused, not well, stress, panic made me hotter, badder (of course not the hot lar u know what I mean -> 'sexy' haha I am not a sexy person). So to all my friends: SORRY if nowadays I have been rude to you or talked to you harshly or hurt you in my speech/action. I am really sorry. Next the most important ones; my family especially my mum and dad. SORRY 对不起. Really sorry. I know I have always not a good daughter compared to my other sisters cause I am always the one that talk back to you all and using harsh tone to you both. I always want to change but in the end fail to do so. Then now I am rushing project am even ruder than before and give bad attitude + black face but I really cannot control myself. I have been trying hard not to but...There is one question that is always in my mind whenever I see my mum's angry/disappointing face after arguing with her, 'Have you regret giving birth to me after anduring so much pain and I treated you so badly?' I feel that maybe if mum, you did not give birth to me or rather if your second child is not me, life will be much more easier for you seriously much much easier...儿女是来讨债的还是还债的? For me I think I belong to the first one cause so far I did nothing to repay my parents...
Am I useless? Yes I 100% think so.
Before I go, SORRY TO ALL REALLY SORRY =]
